| has everything become just about 'me'?
the youth is passing by like a train passed by a station...wht a crap metaphor but neway...
hoping the glory days will be everyday!?
letting yourself to do things that is wrong or right ANYTHING without thinking consquences is not a good thing, but from this point i still havnt learnt n not wanting to accept the fact that i hav to grow..
wht a bullshit entry that im writting but just to remind myself :
Learn to love yourself, for a better future
when will i start to take action on this? love yourself, to love others in return
my mind is not stable and im always losing it ... i do not want to see, one day aileen has become a trash.
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| Lately i start to lose grip of myself, i mean i never reali knew what i wanted, but now its even worse. I know WHAT I M DOING at that time being but after i dont, is dat a problem? I dont like to hear what people say to me but i know they care about me.. i like to love myself but usually mayb thats is when i got hurt and needs to heal. i like to play, but doesnt mean i m bad, playing wif fire mayb its sth im doing or mayb im still safe. there is no definate everything can b a maybe, but ironically i like to know THE ANSWER then just ''maybe'', ''maybe'' is a word to say to someone but not to urself?
Nowadays i always get this feeling of "lacking love'', that makes my loneliness is even greater and that's sad. i m a desperate girl but i don wana be seen as desperate cos i got my own attitude of being desperate n me. I hate to be seen something that i m not, i dont wan to admit it cos i don think im what u r describing as. i know there is someone there for me n he learnt how to appreciate me more, but somehow that is not what i want anymore, my new messy life is right in front of me and the past seems to be THE PAST. should i reali go back to how it was? im tired of both... whtever comes n goes, whtever happens, u know.
what's a Bad Romance? i love that song, can this be my story im such a rush n i cant control it, i wana own, i wana hold, i wana love, i want u. HAHA fking chessy rite..
im writing this to record myself its kinda sad to let people see i dont know, whtever.
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Xanga is dead once again . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .
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| But you're just a boy
You dont understand
How it feels to love a girl someday
You wish you were a better man
You dont listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you've taken her for granted
And everything u had got destroyed
But you're just a boy
i just realise how much this song means now, ha
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| I DONT GET HOW MEN WORKS?
A WALKING DICK ON THE HEAD?
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ALL THOSE PEOPLE?
RIGHT... I SHOULD GET THE IDEA OF '' CAN NOT BUY A SOUL ''
MAYBE ONE DAY I JUST HAVE TO ACCEPT THE FACT THAT EVERYTHING '' IS JUST A GAME ''
WHEN THERE IS NO TRUST THERE IS NO LOVE
I HOPE WHAT U DID CAN KILL THE INVISBLE RELATIONSHIP THAT IS BETWEEN US
I ALWAYS GIVE YOU TEARS, WILL YOU BRING ME HAPPINESS ONE DAY?
OR AN APOLOGY WOULD BE GOOD.
LOVE ME TENDER LOVE ME SWEET
EVERY WOMAN IS FRAGILE PLEASE RESERVE THEM CAREFULLY.
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